An update.

So, by now you’ve probably seen that I’m back in the blogging world and trying my hardest to really get back into my reality. I’m trying to share the things I would usually be scared to share in an attempt to really show how things can progress and move forward. I’m also going to try and share a weekly blog post about my general life – if anything interesting ever happens!

So, here’s my little update from the past few months, just in case any of you were wondering what I’ve been up to!

Well, the most exciting thing to happen is that I got married! We got married on the 13th May and it was genuinely the best day of my life. I didn’t stop smiling, I laughed all day and I had all my friends and family – well, almost – around me. It was heavenly. However, post wedding anxiety did kick in, but we can talk about that in another post another time.

We then went on our first holiday abroad, Cape Verde, for our honeymoon. It was perfect. We laid by the pool, drank cocktails from 10am with no guilt, ate our weight in food and had the best time being the two of us. Then we came home with a bit of a bump.

Our flight from Cape Verde was delayed by 6 hours, resulting in us getting home 5 hours later – somehow the plane flies faster if it really needs to. We were not impressed. Add in the fact that we both had to go back to work and see reality again was a MASSIVE bump.

Once we were home, we moved back in with my in-laws. We couldn’t afford to save for things like a bigger home and a baby whilst paying the rent that we were paying, so it seemed like the ideal solution. Paying little housekeeping to the parents and then we can have a little savings pot for when we decided to be grow ups again. So far so good, but we’ve only been there a few weeks so I’ll let you know how it goes.

Since then, it’s been pretty constant. Having to tell everyone my name and address has changed is honestly so stressful it’s ridiculous! I’m not quite sure where I even am at the moment.

Aside from the usual bits and pieces of life as a married woman, I’m also back in the gym. You can follow my progress over at @lowfatcrispybacon. It’s actually really hard to get back into the healthy eating. Particularly when all you want is ice cream to cool you down! But I’m getting there. I’m also slowly learning that no 2 people are the same when it comes to training. I could train every day and not look as good as someone who trains 3 times per week. It’s all about finding what works for you. I’ll do some more bits and pieces on my fitness and health and things another time.

Apologies for the long and rambling post. If you have any questions just let me know!

C.x

Blogging is a little like therapy.

Being able to share my story yesterday has really helped me. Instead of keeping everything cooped up, I was able to get it off my chest, even talk to someone going through a similar thing.

I’ll be trying to blog more often now, I really will. 

I have the time, I have the need. I’ll be back. Who knows, I might even tell you about my wedding!

C.x

Hello!

I’m back. Well, I’m trying to be back.

When I first started this blog, I was really good at updating you all with my life on a day to day basis, but now? Yeah I went off a little bit. But here I am, trying again!

Since we last spoke properly, a lot has happened.

I know you all know I lost my Granddad in September, that was a pretty hard hit, especially when it was only around 15 months since we lost Nanny. It sucked, but with the help of Joe and my family and friends, I’m managing to get through it. I started Uni again, which again I’m pretty sure you all know, but hey! My blog, I can repeat myself if I want to. My sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl and my brother and his girlfriend had a beautiful baby boy – proud auntie right here! Oh, and we booked our wedding!

Yes, we booked our wedding! On the 13th May 2017 I finally get to marry my best friend. The one I laugh and cry with. The one I’m grumpy with half the time. The one who just makes everything better. I cannot wait! The only hard thing is, the wedding isn’t where we live, it’s actually a couple of hours away! Not that I care, it’s beautiful, half way between the two families and I, no we, love it.

So now, I’m in the process of trying to finish a postgraduate diploma, plan a wedding, make sure we don’t lose our flat (tenancy coming to an end), be an awesome auntie and be a person all at the same time!

I’ve joined a couple of wedding planning groups on facebook, and I’m in touch with the lady who helps us plan things at the reception so it’s not all bad, I have a lot of help! It’s just nervewracking! Next on our list is sorting a photographer and giving notice to become man and wife.

Now for the big decision – do I keep my name, or change it?

C.x

Come say hi!

I’m all over the social world, so why not come and check it out.

Instagram; @imcrispybacon
Twitter; @imcrispybacon
Photography Instagram; @cbaconphotography

Come check me out 🙂 I promise I’ll be back soon boring you with the stories from my life.

C.x

Wedding Planning

Wedding planning is genuinely the most stressful thing I’ve ever embarked upon in my life. Amidst this uni course, house hunting for our move to somewhere completely new, and trying to work out how much money we need, the wedding is driving me absolutely mad!

It’s not just the big bits that are driving me mad, finding a venue, dress, photographer, etc., it’s the supposedly smaller things. – the guest list. It’s driving me absolutely bonkers. We’re trying to work out who we really want there, while also trying to make sure the important people are invited and trying not to upset anyone.

It’s genuinely the hardest thing I have to do, and to be honest, I just want the wedding here so that I can be married to the love of my life. Why does it have to be so frustrating!

C.x

Am I forgetting you?

Am I forgetting you? I must be. I don’t think of you every day. It doesn’t hurt every day. I don’t look to the sky every night like I used to and I don’t look at my tattoo and cry.

I forgot your birthday on Tuesday. It’s only your second birthday without you here and I forgot. Yes, everyone says it’s fine because of everything else going on, but how can it be fine to forget your birthday. How can it be fine to forget you.

It’s not just you, Nanny. It’s Granddad too. We only lost him a few months ago and I don’t think of him every day. The only time I get upset is when I see other people upset. When I see my Mum upset.

I don’t want to forget you. I don’t even want to miss you, but missing you it better than forgetting you.

I love you both, with all my heart.

C.x

Happy New Year.

I don’t normally buy into the “new year new me” thing, because it’s wrong. You don’t just change overnight, it takes time. Instead, I’m going to focus on what I’ve learned in 2015 to carry forward.

Don’t take those you love for granted. When I lost my Nanny I didn’t know what to do, so when I lost my Granddad in September I was heartbroken. I took them for granted my entire life and there’s nothing I regret more. In 2016, I’m going to make sure I make more time for those I love, visit home more and make sure those I love know I love them. Now I’ve got the most beautiful little niece to dote on, and a nephew coming in March and I can’t wait to be the best auntie I can be.

Life gets hard, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t worth it. Passing my degree was hard, dealing with grief was hard, moving out and going it by ourselves was hard, going back to uni was hard. But it didn’t matter how hard it got, every second was worth it.

Money isn’t everything. Since we moved out, everyone has been asking us if we’re okay for money. I mean, I appreciate everyone asking, checking we’re not struggling, I just wish they’d ask if we were doing well ourselves. Getting on with living on our own.

I know it doesn’t sound like much, but my main lessons learned is that love can conquer everything. It doesn’t matter how low you feel or how hard things get, if you’re surrounded by the people you love then they can get you through it. It’s time for me to be there for everyone I love.

2015 has been a great year for me aside from losing my Granddad, but I’m taking important lessons through into the new year.

Wherever you are tonight, whatever you’re doing, I ask two things of you. 1. Make sure those who you love know you love them. And 2. Stay safe.

See you all in the new year!

C.x