I am 100% sure.

I am 100% sure that the second I find peace within myself I’ll stop comparing every aspect of my life to those around me. 

When your self esteem isn’t very high, but anxiety is right up there, it can be difficult to realise that things aren’t as bad as they could be.

I’m working hard on a daily basis to be the best and strongest version of myself, both in body and mind. However, I’d quite like it all to hurry up! There is always going to be someone with a better body, a healthier mind, a healthier life than me. The truth is, there’s nothing I can do about that. What I can do though, is try to make sure that I focus on me. I focus on making myself the best possible version of myself. 

No matter how hard I try, I’ll only ever be me.

Just something else to work on!

C.x

Failure is giving up

Sometimes, when you’re having a bad day, week or month, everything can seem bleak. It can feel as though nothing is going well and that you can’t really get to where you need to be. Sometimes, it’s difficult to just get on.

We all have them. Some of us more than others. The important thing to do though, is find something that keeps you going. I can guarantee we all have something.

How do I know? How do I know that you have something to hold on to? I don’t know you’re story, nor do I pretend to. But what I do know, if you’re reading this, is that you’re still here.

You’re still here, and you’ve managed to do as much as either looking through blogs. Seen that I’ve posted a new one. Or just generally browsing the internet. Whatever you were doing when you came across my blog, you were doing something.

For me, I have a few things. I have a job that I love. I have a husband (still can’t get used to this) that I adore. I have the gym, where I can focus on me and forget about the outside world. I also have my books – when I get time. We all have places and things to do that can let us escape from reality for a little while. They are our “happy places”.

I’m not 100% sure of what the point of the blog was. It was about failure to begin with, and how you haven’t failed until you’ve stopped trying. Doing something everyday, no matter how big or small will stop you from failing.

Here’s a little tip for when you’re feeling rubbish. Someone once told me that if you smile when you don’t feel like it, it tricks your brain into thinking you’re happy. I have no idea if it’s true, but it does make me laugh. And when I laugh it puts me in a better mood and a better mind space.

Anyway, if I type anymore, I’ll be rambling. So off I go to bed.

Speak to you all soon.

C.x

 

Welcome back. 

The title may be a little misleading. I often say I’m coming back to blogging, and then I disappear again. this time, I’m making a solid effort to blog daily. In fact, I think it may be the most helpful thing I can do for myself. 

The last few months have been difficult. Wedding planning, family drama, qualifying and starting a new job and passing my driving test have resulted in an increased amount of anxiety that’s been looming. 

I’ve always been more on the anxious side than my wonderful relaxed husband to be, but recently it’s been getting the better of me. Thankfully, his calmness is really helpful at times, he knows exactly how to make things better. 

What I have realised though, is that I need a network. Living in London means that I’m away from my family and most of my friends, and I’m really quite lonely. I had started to try and build friendships here but then I disappeared. So I’m setting myself a challenge. I’m going to blog everyday for the rest of the month and see if it helps me get back into it. 

To remind me, I’m setting an alarm on my phone for a time I know I shouldn’t be busy. 

Hope to reconnect with you all soon.

C.x