A Letter.

Dear Nanny and Granddad,

I’m having a reallly hard time without you at the moment, everything is going so well and I wish with everything I have that you were here to witness it.

I passed my first exam the other day – I did really well and all I wanted to do as tell you about it all. I want to tell you about how I’m getting married next year and I can’t wait for you to see me walking down the aisle. To see me finally marry the love of my life. Continue reading “A Letter.”

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Wedding Planning

Wedding planning is genuinely the most stressful thing I’ve ever embarked upon in my life. Amidst this uni course, house hunting for our move to somewhere completely new, and trying to work out how much money we need, the wedding is driving me absolutely mad!

It’s not just the big bits that are driving me mad, finding a venue, dress, photographer, etc., it’s the supposedly smaller things. – the guest list. It’s driving me absolutely bonkers. We’re trying to work out who we really want there, while also trying to make sure the important people are invited and trying not to upset anyone.

It’s genuinely the hardest thing I have to do, and to be honest, I just want the wedding here so that I can be married to the love of my life. Why does it have to be so frustrating!

C.x

Am I forgetting you?

Am I forgetting you? I must be. I don’t think of you every day. It doesn’t hurt every day. I don’t look to the sky every night like I used to and I don’t look at my tattoo and cry.

I forgot your birthday on Tuesday. It’s only your second birthday without you here and I forgot. Yes, everyone says it’s fine because of everything else going on, but how can it be fine to forget your birthday. How can it be fine to forget you.

It’s not just you, Nanny. It’s Granddad too. We only lost him a few months ago and I don’t think of him every day. The only time I get upset is when I see other people upset. When I see my Mum upset.

I don’t want to forget you. I don’t even want to miss you, but missing you it better than forgetting you.

I love you both, with all my heart.

C.x

A lot happened last year

I know I’m really late to the game with the whole “this happened last year” post, but actually, I’ve been so busy with work that I haven’t had the time to really sit and process the amount that happened!

I graduated! I managed to get through three of the hardest years of my entire life and graduated with a 2:1 honours degree. It was AMAZING!

I got my first job. The experience was amazing and I can’t thank the people I worked with enough. They made the transition so smooth and they were all so supportive. I don’t think I could have done it without them.

Joe and I moved into our own little home. This, in all honesty, is the absolute highlight of my year. It was the time when we both came together and made a home, started our lives and realised just how much we are a team. It’s the best decision we ever made!

I got back into uni! Ha, within 7 months of leaving I was back! But I’m doing something I love with all my heart so I don’t regret it in the slightest!

I became an Auntie! EEEK my sister had a little, beautiful baby girl! It was the most amazing experience meeting my little sisters beautiful little baby. It’s the best feeling in the world.

Finally, I lost two of the most important men in my life. My Granddad and my Uncle Bob. My Granddad passed away in September and it killed me. The only solace I can find from this though, is that he’s back with Nanny. The absolute love of his life. My Uncle Bob was an amazing man who did so much for me and my family, it’s heartbreaking that he’s gone, but he’s in a better place and no longer in pain.

It’s fair to say 2015 was a year of ups and downs. A year full of challenges that we’ve managed to overcome. But now it’s 2016 and it’s time to look forward.

Happy belated new year everyone!

C.x